Friday, October 28, 2005
My day started badly. The middle became worse. The ending is good, because the Lord renewed my strength and restored my energy and joy in my heart. Sth.I wana reinforce and tell myself today after watching the princess diaries(These are quotes from the show):
Wow is having the power to affect change; make pple listen
The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all
Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment of something else is more important than fear.
From now on, you will be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to amount yourself to make the journey
*I'm glad to have my joy restored=)*
Wow is having the power to affect change; make pple listen
The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all
Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment of something else is more important than fear.
From now on, you will be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to amount yourself to make the journey
*I'm glad to have my joy restored=)*
what i look forward to, 10:15 PM.
He answered and said, "Whether He is a sinner or not I do not know. One thing I know: that though I was blind, now I see."- John 9:25
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, Who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.
"Come and hear, all you who fear God, And I will declare what He has done for my soul."- Psalm 66:16
Thank You Jesus. Only You can really take away the dirt in my life, the saddness in me. Thank you for this amazing grace.
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, Who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.
"Come and hear, all you who fear God, And I will declare what He has done for my soul."- Psalm 66:16
Thank You Jesus. Only You can really take away the dirt in my life, the saddness in me. Thank you for this amazing grace.
what i look forward to, 4:41 PM.
increase in me lord. Increase in me.
what i look forward to, 3:09 AM.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Today, I learnt that more about faith!
Gift of faith= faith of God! It is given by the Holy Spirit. it is not received just through the logos( the word of god as a whole), but through the rhema- a specific word god speaks to you! Rhenma is a conviction mixed in the word of god spoken by God Himself specifically to you!
Then in our daily living, the faith we need to exercise= faith IN God!
Gift of faith= faith of God! It is given by the Holy Spirit. it is not received just through the logos( the word of god as a whole), but through the rhema- a specific word god speaks to you! Rhenma is a conviction mixed in the word of god spoken by God Himself specifically to you!
Then in our daily living, the faith we need to exercise= faith IN God!
what i look forward to, 10:45 PM.
Monday, October 24, 2005
I just wana say that I'm Blessed.=)This is a thank-you entry to all who have taught me, guided me, helped me grow more in the lord and mature in life. It's a time to give thanks to my awesome lord too, for the wonderful things You've done and will continue to do in my life. =)
I'm blessed to have people around me that love me and help me love the Lord more. It is you guys that have helped me and inspired me to love the lord more than ever. I know that probably no one really reads this blog, hahaha.. what I still wana use this place to thank all of you! Be it good friends, seasonal friends, acquaintances, ministry friends, my leaders, my pap and mum. I really appreciate your love and friendship.=)
I guess first of all, i owe my BIGGEST thank-you to you God. That you loved me even before I know how to love.. that's just amazing to me. You are the one who taught me how to love and cherish those who love me. You are the One who gave me a new life, hope, joy and peace in my life. You are the One who brought me out of my vallies, that I can learn from my mistakes and experiences and grow to be a stronger person. I just want to say that I love you very much Jesus. And I adore you. Alot.
To my dad... I know you'll probably not read this.. dont see you on the computer very often..hahah.. and you certainly dont know about my blog.. but I really love you very very much. Even though you're not saved yet, but i know that God has used you time and time again to remind me of His love. He has used you to bless me. I remember the times when i was just so emotionally down and depressed. You were the first one to notice the change in me, and to take action to save me. I thank you dad.. And though I haven said these three words for a very long time.. I wana say it here that I love you. very very much. =)
To my bestest ever friend.. haha... YOU ROCK!!! BIG TIME!! HAhahah... you are the one who brought me into the house of God, you taught me that loving God is a COMMITTMENT, not just a feeling or an emotion. You are the one that brought out the lively,crazy side of me, and made me more ME. haha... I love you for who you are.=) You GO GAL! hahahah..
Of course, I have many many many people who have impacted my life in one way or another. I realise that in every season of my life, my challenges may change, but i'm ALWAYS blessed with great friends that support me all the way. For that, I thank every good friend that has come into my life in one season or another. I pray that more good, blessed friendships will come my way, and I hope I have impacted my friends in one way or another.=)
In church, I have so many thank-yous to say! But a particular group of people that really stuck in my head when I intended to write this entry is the people that I've met and be guided by in the Children's Church Ministry. I just started serving in ministry this early part of the year, but I've been tremendously blessed. I've been stretched time and time again by the leaders, but I truly thank everyone of them, because I know in my heart that I've grown under their leadership and guidance. Things are not always like " Oh I simply love, like totally love ministry" straightaway. There have been times, esp. during the first few months of ministry, when you just dont feel like doing visitation or coming to church at 7.45am. hahah..
But thank God, by His grace and by my will power (haha.), I've really grown to love the things i do, and the role i play in ministry. People ask me why dont I take study break for my exams while many have done so. The reply in my heart is only because I really look forward every sunday to coming early to the house of god. Just dwelling in His house and serving Him in my small little way is my way of relieving stress, and gaining joy and strength.=)
Life has never been the same since I stepped into the house of god. It has completely changed my life.. physically, emotionally and most of all spiritually. It is indeed.. beautiful, because Christ lives in me. amen.=)
what i look forward to, 12:15 AM.
Friday, October 21, 2005
OH my GOSH! I'm so so appalled by what i saw on a TV programme that I'm on the verge of puking.. literally. Hardly had any appetite for lunch after watching that programme..oh my.
I was watching the Oprah show( it's really one of the best shows to catch when you're channel surfing..seriously). She was talking about identical twins.. girls. Of the pair of identical twins, one found out that she has a different sexual orientation from her supposed sexuality, from her other twin sister. What appalled me was that she came to a point where liking girls is not enough, inorder to mirror the identity she feels inside of her,she went for a sex change. No, actually that's not what disgusted me. It is the extend of the sex change, the processes involved in a sex change that really induced my disgust. (I still feel like puking 45min after the show.)
The breasts are taken away through liposuction and another process. The manly features like the muscles, the facial hair etc.. basically what biology students know as the secondary sexual characteristics are developed by injecting testosterone. There were 2 pairs of identical female twins being interviewed and out of the 2, 1 of them did not do this while the other is gona do it: that is... going for an operation so that "he" can have a.. err.. male sexual organ. So the "he"s have stopped their menstruation because they also removed their female sexual organs.
what i find totally puzzling is that right now..1 of the 2 "he"s being interviewed now has started to find interest in men! Gay men! oh my gosh.. first, "he" likes girls, then after the sex change, "he" is finding interest in man? sigh.. wadever.
I was so appalled by the whole programme today i couldnt watch it through. In the end, i switched to a more "proper" programme.. tennis! That's my all-time favourite sport programme! haha...
All i want to say is that the devil is a bad devil. But God- God is a GOOD GOD.
** For your information, dont be mistaken as to think that the Oprah show is a bad show that showcases bad stuff. It is not. In fact, Oprah really should be applauded for her helping the american society be more aware of their wrongdoings and rectify their mistakes. You can really learn alot from her shows, i strongly recommend it. It was just that the content of that particular show for today, the wrongdoings of the "he"s were just too.. i dont know.. wrong.
oh oh.. a pyschologist was also interviewed and she was talking about how some biological processes in the mother's body during pregnancy can cause the identical twins to have different sexual orientations. I didnt listen fully 'cause I decided that's enough, i had to switch channel. But as she was talking about I dont know what.. err.. some biological thing in during pregnancy and all.. I was like hmmm... that does not sound very right.
I mean I wont totally discount the credibility of the biological processes thing contributing to their different sexual orientations.I'm not well-learned in this area to argue against it. But what i DO know is that when you have done something wrong, something so unmistakeably wrong like this.. Dont just blame it on your mum's body, or your environmental influences or whatever other factors. Ultimately, you have to admit you have sinned. It is sin that has caused you to do it!The bible says that all have fallen short of the glory of God.
God i pray that you come and take control of this world. This world is out of control without you. Give us the peace and the wisdom of god even as we do your work. I pray that you cause us, cause all believers to have the anointing to impact the people around us and bring them back to You. We all NEED You. You are sovereign. Come and take dominion. Thank you Jesus. Amen.
I was watching the Oprah show( it's really one of the best shows to catch when you're channel surfing..seriously). She was talking about identical twins.. girls. Of the pair of identical twins, one found out that she has a different sexual orientation from her supposed sexuality, from her other twin sister. What appalled me was that she came to a point where liking girls is not enough, inorder to mirror the identity she feels inside of her,she went for a sex change. No, actually that's not what disgusted me. It is the extend of the sex change, the processes involved in a sex change that really induced my disgust. (I still feel like puking 45min after the show.)
The breasts are taken away through liposuction and another process. The manly features like the muscles, the facial hair etc.. basically what biology students know as the secondary sexual characteristics are developed by injecting testosterone. There were 2 pairs of identical female twins being interviewed and out of the 2, 1 of them did not do this while the other is gona do it: that is... going for an operation so that "he" can have a.. err.. male sexual organ. So the "he"s have stopped their menstruation because they also removed their female sexual organs.
what i find totally puzzling is that right now..1 of the 2 "he"s being interviewed now has started to find interest in men! Gay men! oh my gosh.. first, "he" likes girls, then after the sex change, "he" is finding interest in man? sigh.. wadever.
I was so appalled by the whole programme today i couldnt watch it through. In the end, i switched to a more "proper" programme.. tennis! That's my all-time favourite sport programme! haha...
All i want to say is that the devil is a bad devil. But God- God is a GOOD GOD.
** For your information, dont be mistaken as to think that the Oprah show is a bad show that showcases bad stuff. It is not. In fact, Oprah really should be applauded for her helping the american society be more aware of their wrongdoings and rectify their mistakes. You can really learn alot from her shows, i strongly recommend it. It was just that the content of that particular show for today, the wrongdoings of the "he"s were just too.. i dont know.. wrong.
oh oh.. a pyschologist was also interviewed and she was talking about how some biological processes in the mother's body during pregnancy can cause the identical twins to have different sexual orientations. I didnt listen fully 'cause I decided that's enough, i had to switch channel. But as she was talking about I dont know what.. err.. some biological thing in during pregnancy and all.. I was like hmmm... that does not sound very right.
I mean I wont totally discount the credibility of the biological processes thing contributing to their different sexual orientations.I'm not well-learned in this area to argue against it. But what i DO know is that when you have done something wrong, something so unmistakeably wrong like this.. Dont just blame it on your mum's body, or your environmental influences or whatever other factors. Ultimately, you have to admit you have sinned. It is sin that has caused you to do it!The bible says that all have fallen short of the glory of God.
God i pray that you come and take control of this world. This world is out of control without you. Give us the peace and the wisdom of god even as we do your work. I pray that you cause us, cause all believers to have the anointing to impact the people around us and bring them back to You. We all NEED You. You are sovereign. Come and take dominion. Thank you Jesus. Amen.
what i look forward to, 2:22 PM.
This song is a good example of songs that I always see as God asking me to draw close to Him. Enjoy.=)
No Mountains too high, for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No rivers too wide, for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray
And then you will see, the morning will come
And everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day
And then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears, just cast them on me
How can I make you see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep up safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
No Mountains too high, for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No rivers too wide, for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray
And then you will see, the morning will come
And everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day
And then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears, just cast them on me
How can I make you see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep up safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
what i look forward to, 12:41 AM.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
I cant help but blog this in...
Music is beautiful.
The meaning and impact of the words of songs are even more powerful.
We, as mankind, can invoke so strong emotions and pen down so powerful and strong words in songs. Words like:
I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my mind off you...-Damien Rice; The Blower's daughter
Love me tender,Love me sweet,Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,And I love you so.
I was chilling out with a few friends at wala wala last night. There was a band comprising of 3 guitarist. The strumming,the plucking was great. The singing was greater. There i was enjoying the entire performance, and every word of the songs was going into my ears with understanding. And there i really realised that man really crave to love and to be loved. Such that they will put down such strong promises in the lyrics of songs... To love thee all my life....
Even as i was in the car, on my way back from my dad's birthday dinner, of all songs.. I only caught one part of a song i never heard in my life..."When you love someone, you sacrifice. You give all you've got, you dont think twice" This is beautiful.
Yet, many people out there dont know that there's a greater love than a human-to-human kind of love. Everyone craves for love, without knowing that besides from having a love relationship with a lover, there is a greater love just waiting for you to receive.
I dont know why, but that has been in the very centre of my heart. I dont know why, but now everytime i hear any song, esp. songs that express words of love, it does not cause me to think of a love for a guy.. But it invokes a greater longing to see my lord face to face. the words also seem as if God is speaking to me of his love.
If you know that there's a god that loves you beyond your life here on earth, that you can have a love that's eternal, that's truly everlasting, will you receive it? I pray that you do, because it's really the best thing to have in this world. Only He will never disapppoint you.Amen.
Music is beautiful.
The meaning and impact of the words of songs are even more powerful.
We, as mankind, can invoke so strong emotions and pen down so powerful and strong words in songs. Words like:
I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my eyes off you. I cant take my mind off you...-Damien Rice; The Blower's daughter
Love me tender,Love me sweet,Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,And I love you so.
I was chilling out with a few friends at wala wala last night. There was a band comprising of 3 guitarist. The strumming,the plucking was great. The singing was greater. There i was enjoying the entire performance, and every word of the songs was going into my ears with understanding. And there i really realised that man really crave to love and to be loved. Such that they will put down such strong promises in the lyrics of songs... To love thee all my life....
Even as i was in the car, on my way back from my dad's birthday dinner, of all songs.. I only caught one part of a song i never heard in my life..."When you love someone, you sacrifice. You give all you've got, you dont think twice" This is beautiful.
Yet, many people out there dont know that there's a greater love than a human-to-human kind of love. Everyone craves for love, without knowing that besides from having a love relationship with a lover, there is a greater love just waiting for you to receive.
I dont know why, but that has been in the very centre of my heart. I dont know why, but now everytime i hear any song, esp. songs that express words of love, it does not cause me to think of a love for a guy.. But it invokes a greater longing to see my lord face to face. the words also seem as if God is speaking to me of his love.
If you know that there's a god that loves you beyond your life here on earth, that you can have a love that's eternal, that's truly everlasting, will you receive it? I pray that you do, because it's really the best thing to have in this world. Only He will never disapppoint you.Amen.
what i look forward to, 11:55 PM.
Hey there… was just thinking, just in case anybody slam me for criticizing or condemning or wadever-ing pinkshoefetish when I don’t even know her, better clarify a bit.
Im not pin-pointing anyone in particular. It’s just that after reading pinkshoefetish, her thoughts invoke some thoughts which I think will challenge many people’s pre-conceived assumptions or thoughts about hopes and dreams.
I had a classmate who had messed up her life in Singapore, with her relationship problems, drinking and clubbing life and all. Then, a few weeks just before the A levels, she decided to quit the A levels and school, meaning she decided not to take it. To add to it, she decided to spend money in the form of thousands to go to UK to do her A levels again. She felt that she can’t do it in Singapore, there were too many things interrupting her life. She too had A HOPE that things will turn out for the better once she goes to UK.
But you see, it doesn’t matter where you are you see. What makes you so sure that when you go to another country, when you change your environment, you will not start to indulge in the same lifestyle again? The way you live your life is just the manifestation of what goes on in your heart, in your beliefs, in your set of values- in YOU. Anyway, what I know is that when she went over to UK, she still continued in her ways- smoking, drinking, having causal relationships with guys.
So did that hope turn into reality, or was it just another illusion? Hmm…
Change- does not come about merely by changing your circumstances. Permanent change comes about through a change of SELF. Because even if circumstances change now, other bad circumstances will always come in future seasons of your life. Only a change in SELF will enable you to better manage your circumstances, better enable you to decide how you want to face your circumstances.
Hope- if your hopes do not have a strong foundation, then your hopes are just periods of illusions that will not come true. They are all just empty talk. On the other hand, if your hopes and dreams are based on the Word of God, He who has promised will make it come to pass. God bless. =)
Im not pin-pointing anyone in particular. It’s just that after reading pinkshoefetish, her thoughts invoke some thoughts which I think will challenge many people’s pre-conceived assumptions or thoughts about hopes and dreams.
I had a classmate who had messed up her life in Singapore, with her relationship problems, drinking and clubbing life and all. Then, a few weeks just before the A levels, she decided to quit the A levels and school, meaning she decided not to take it. To add to it, she decided to spend money in the form of thousands to go to UK to do her A levels again. She felt that she can’t do it in Singapore, there were too many things interrupting her life. She too had A HOPE that things will turn out for the better once she goes to UK.
But you see, it doesn’t matter where you are you see. What makes you so sure that when you go to another country, when you change your environment, you will not start to indulge in the same lifestyle again? The way you live your life is just the manifestation of what goes on in your heart, in your beliefs, in your set of values- in YOU. Anyway, what I know is that when she went over to UK, she still continued in her ways- smoking, drinking, having causal relationships with guys.
So did that hope turn into reality, or was it just another illusion? Hmm…
Change- does not come about merely by changing your circumstances. Permanent change comes about through a change of SELF. Because even if circumstances change now, other bad circumstances will always come in future seasons of your life. Only a change in SELF will enable you to better manage your circumstances, better enable you to decide how you want to face your circumstances.
Hope- if your hopes do not have a strong foundation, then your hopes are just periods of illusions that will not come true. They are all just empty talk. On the other hand, if your hopes and dreams are based on the Word of God, He who has promised will make it come to pass. God bless. =)
what i look forward to, 10:41 PM.
haha...was reading pinkshoefetish moments ago.. her last entry.. Her main words? => "Excited because every good relationship will ALWAYS be better than the last. Since i had such a good one with you know who, my next one will be spectacular!"
I smiled on the inside of me as thoughts from that quote came rushing into my head. Im not trying to spoil any feelings of her positive thinking, really.. But seriously, on what basis will the relationships be better than the next? Are those statements based on strong foundations of truth?...or merely words that are trying to psych herself up, expressions of hope? hmm....
At this point, i'm reminded of the lessons i learnt last night during my bible study. FAITH... The bible says in Heb 11:1 that "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen".
Theres alot more that i learnt last night, but i wana go straight to my main point relating to my question of whether pinkshoefetish's statements are merely thoughts to pysch herself up for the future. I'm not saying those statements are wrong, there's absolutely nothing wrong in pysching yourself or having hopes of having a better future. Think everybody have hopes and all. But.. ok, just hear this out, im gona quote directly from my bible study book regarding a point that validates my question.
**Quotation:Faith Produces a firm foundation.
"Substance" in Greek text is the word Hupostasis which means a "suport or latform you stand on." Faith is the basis or foundation for everything we hope for.
Faith is not trying to psyche yourself up to make what you wish for come true. It is not trying to use "mental concentration or mind control". It is not mere positive thinking! without faith, our hoing is mere wishful thinking, doomed to bitter disillusionment. Faith is therefore a most important foundation truth because it is the foundation of our ability to receive things from God(Heb 6:12). Becasue faith is substantial, we can walk, stand and build our lives on it."
Personally, i feel that it is good to invoke positive thoughts after exeriencing failures, disapoointments etc. It expresses a form of hope inspoite of the bad circumstances around you. Im not saying its wrong. Neither am i against it.It's just that what makes you so sure that things will become better simply because you think so. Many a times, when people around me experience failures or disappointments in life, i try to tell them "hey, things will be better!" and most will be like "yeah yeah, i hope so" That is a positive reply, but with no basis whatsoever to really believe and have that " i know that i know that i know things will be better"!kinda strong confidence,assurance in your heart!You know? That UMPH feeling..
Your confidence for a better future will ONLY come as a result of having GOD IN YOUR LIFE! That is my main point. YES,you can have the assurance that your life will change for the better even though things are down in the mud only becuase There IS A GOD THAT IS BIGGER THAN OUR TEMPORARY PROBLEMS!
So today, if God is not in your life, if you have not yet accepted Jesus into your heart, will you allow Him to come into your life and make a permanent change for the better of your future?The bible says in JEr 29:11,"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
And as for believers, dont conform to your circumstances, the situations of your life! Lift up your circumstances to the level of the word of God!If God has said that a mustard seed of faith will move all mountains, then it shall be so! Let's all learn to carry out faith to the level of His promises! hmm.. yes, I shall do that!Amen.
(PS: Sorry if it feels like im "preaching" again.. haha,im in no way, in any position to do so. im just trying to challenge and uplift my own spiritman through writing this. Hope that this will impact you too.God bless. Cheers! =D)
I smiled on the inside of me as thoughts from that quote came rushing into my head. Im not trying to spoil any feelings of her positive thinking, really.. But seriously, on what basis will the relationships be better than the next? Are those statements based on strong foundations of truth?...or merely words that are trying to psych herself up, expressions of hope? hmm....
At this point, i'm reminded of the lessons i learnt last night during my bible study. FAITH... The bible says in Heb 11:1 that "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen".
Theres alot more that i learnt last night, but i wana go straight to my main point relating to my question of whether pinkshoefetish's statements are merely thoughts to pysch herself up for the future. I'm not saying those statements are wrong, there's absolutely nothing wrong in pysching yourself or having hopes of having a better future. Think everybody have hopes and all. But.. ok, just hear this out, im gona quote directly from my bible study book regarding a point that validates my question.
**Quotation:Faith Produces a firm foundation.
"Substance" in Greek text is the word Hupostasis which means a "suport or latform you stand on." Faith is the basis or foundation for everything we hope for.
Faith is not trying to psyche yourself up to make what you wish for come true. It is not trying to use "mental concentration or mind control". It is not mere positive thinking! without faith, our hoing is mere wishful thinking, doomed to bitter disillusionment. Faith is therefore a most important foundation truth because it is the foundation of our ability to receive things from God(Heb 6:12). Becasue faith is substantial, we can walk, stand and build our lives on it."
Personally, i feel that it is good to invoke positive thoughts after exeriencing failures, disapoointments etc. It expresses a form of hope inspoite of the bad circumstances around you. Im not saying its wrong. Neither am i against it.It's just that what makes you so sure that things will become better simply because you think so. Many a times, when people around me experience failures or disappointments in life, i try to tell them "hey, things will be better!" and most will be like "yeah yeah, i hope so" That is a positive reply, but with no basis whatsoever to really believe and have that " i know that i know that i know things will be better"!kinda strong confidence,assurance in your heart!You know? That UMPH feeling..
Your confidence for a better future will ONLY come as a result of having GOD IN YOUR LIFE! That is my main point. YES,you can have the assurance that your life will change for the better even though things are down in the mud only becuase There IS A GOD THAT IS BIGGER THAN OUR TEMPORARY PROBLEMS!
So today, if God is not in your life, if you have not yet accepted Jesus into your heart, will you allow Him to come into your life and make a permanent change for the better of your future?The bible says in JEr 29:11,"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
And as for believers, dont conform to your circumstances, the situations of your life! Lift up your circumstances to the level of the word of God!If God has said that a mustard seed of faith will move all mountains, then it shall be so! Let's all learn to carry out faith to the level of His promises! hmm.. yes, I shall do that!Amen.
(PS: Sorry if it feels like im "preaching" again.. haha,im in no way, in any position to do so. im just trying to challenge and uplift my own spiritman through writing this. Hope that this will impact you too.God bless. Cheers! =D)
what i look forward to, 3:40 PM.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Man.. i just have to blog this in before i go off. Today's tutorial in CS104 was really funny! As usual, prof lee, being self-indulgent, but a very nice guy indeed, was talking about resumes which lapsed into his own personal life.. AGAIN. This time, it's about his korean wife. haha..
*(I suspect most professors are self- indulgent.. They often use class time to promote the things they have done to challenge societal norms, laws, or what they have done to change this society.. haha.. amusing.)
But anyway..the interesting part came when he started talking about the way he proposed to his wife. He said that since the email technology wasnt "in" yet, he used the fax to fax his marriage proposal to his wife in Korea! oh my gosh..he proposed through fax!hahah.. And he said that it shows his seriousness..haha.. thought that was funny, but i wasnt agreeing to the idea of using fax, but nvm.Prof lee's amicable, candid and frank.He said that in using the fax, he wasa participating in the use of technology, something like that..wow, what a way to rationalise the way he proposed.haha.
So almost immediately, he flew to korea to meet his future parents-in-laws and he said all they asked were 3 questions: What is your job background, your education background, and your family background? After that, the father-in-law said pls take good care of my daughter.
The amazing thing was that from the time he knew her to the time he ROMed with her, it was a mere 4months! Wow... and from the time of ROM to the time he held his wedding, another 4months! another wow.. He gave the reason being that why wait, he has the sense it's her (something like that), so he should not wait any longer otherwise the risks will be higher! He kept mentioning about this risk, and i was thinking what on earth's that risk he's referring to?? So my curiosity led to my questioning of that particular risk...That risk turned out to be the risk of losing the "competition" to other guys because she was dating 2 other guys at that time! haha... the whole class started to burst out in laughter..hahahha
oh man.. He is funny. But to sum it off, he told us that because he came from a broken family; his parents were divorced during his childhood, and it does have an impact on the child which is him. So in a marriage, he believes TRUST comes before LOVE. He said if you dont have TRUST towards that person, dont even talk about LOVE.
I dont know what to think of his belief... what do you think?Tell me about it.=)
*(I suspect most professors are self- indulgent.. They often use class time to promote the things they have done to challenge societal norms, laws, or what they have done to change this society.. haha.. amusing.)
But anyway..the interesting part came when he started talking about the way he proposed to his wife. He said that since the email technology wasnt "in" yet, he used the fax to fax his marriage proposal to his wife in Korea! oh my gosh..he proposed through fax!hahah.. And he said that it shows his seriousness..haha.. thought that was funny, but i wasnt agreeing to the idea of using fax, but nvm.Prof lee's amicable, candid and frank.He said that in using the fax, he wasa participating in the use of technology, something like that..wow, what a way to rationalise the way he proposed.haha.
So almost immediately, he flew to korea to meet his future parents-in-laws and he said all they asked were 3 questions: What is your job background, your education background, and your family background? After that, the father-in-law said pls take good care of my daughter.
The amazing thing was that from the time he knew her to the time he ROMed with her, it was a mere 4months! Wow... and from the time of ROM to the time he held his wedding, another 4months! another wow.. He gave the reason being that why wait, he has the sense it's her (something like that), so he should not wait any longer otherwise the risks will be higher! He kept mentioning about this risk, and i was thinking what on earth's that risk he's referring to?? So my curiosity led to my questioning of that particular risk...That risk turned out to be the risk of losing the "competition" to other guys because she was dating 2 other guys at that time! haha... the whole class started to burst out in laughter..hahahha
oh man.. He is funny. But to sum it off, he told us that because he came from a broken family; his parents were divorced during his childhood, and it does have an impact on the child which is him. So in a marriage, he believes TRUST comes before LOVE. He said if you dont have TRUST towards that person, dont even talk about LOVE.
I dont know what to think of his belief... what do you think?Tell me about it.=)
what i look forward to, 2:00 AM.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Communication is not equal to talking.
Communication is the very fundamental thing in life, but it is also the very thing that all of us tend to "go haywire" in. The fact is that we have to LEARN how to communicate! haha... interesting huh?
Im not a communications expert, neither am i a guru in teaching communications. But based on my personal experiences and thoughts, and learnings as a communications studies student, maybe i can offer you certain thoughts to digest. hehe.. =)
Many people misinterpret the idea, the concept of communication. they think that simply by being a good talker, they are a good communicator. In truth, i think they make good promoters of their own ideals and their own message, but not necessarily good communicators. You see, in communication, there is a relationship. Talking, in my own opinion, is just the output, the product of your communication and thought process. What comes out of your mouth is just the end result of the inputs you've received. So what are these inputs? ah-huh, these inuts make up the process and concept of true communication.
In communications studies, i learnt that the basic communication processes are:
1)Perceiving and understanding ourselves, others, situations and experiences
2)Creating interaction climates
3)Engaging in verbal communication
4)Engaging in nonverbal communication
5)Listening and responding to others
6)Adapting to people and contexts
***Two very important things which I personally think is very essential for good communication is OBSERVATION & LISTENING!!! Too often, people just gag and gag and gag without thinking through the things that they have said. Remember WORDS HAVE IMPACT. haha...So it's very important that you consider how your msg, your verbal and non-verbal parts of your communication will impact the person. Will it hurt that person? How will that person perceive it? hmm.. maybe you'll wana think about that...
In deciding how a person will respond to your message, your past observations of that person will come into usefulness..hehe.. You may have noticed how she laughs when others say a certain line, or how she frowns in disagreement when another says something else. Then when you start to compare your intended message with the others, and start to visualize how she will react, based on your past interactions with him/her and observing how he/she reacted when certain words or lines were spoken to her.. ah-huh! There you will start to be able to understand how that person will react to your message.
I think the main thing that I wish to bring across is that God created all of us to have 2 eyes, 2 ears, but only 1 mouth. Surely this is an indication for us to hear and observe twice as much as we talk?? Hmmm…think about that..haha..
"So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath"- James 1:19
***Another thing that I have learnt recently is about ASSUMPTIONS. During a school ministry meeting, this speaker was sharing with us a message about the different seasons in our lives, in particular the 'winter season', and this sentence just BANGED into my head really really strongly: ASSUMPTION IS THE LOWEST LEVEL OF KNOWLEDGE!
Oh my! How true it is! Many a times, as our friendships or relationships deepen and continue to endure the test of time, our attitudes may grow to become casual towards our friends, our loved ones etc. We start to think that we have already known all about that person, every bit of their character, personality through and through. As a result, we start to have pre-conceived ideas in our minds about that person, how he/she’s gona think, react, feel… we think we have and know it all already. But that sentence really woke me up like, hey! Give that person a chance to respond and show his reactions and his thoughts for himself! You are not him, only God knows him through and through.. not you! So no matter how long you’ve known a person, there’s always something new to learn about that person, from that person.. so don’t assume. It will only limit our capacity to learn. In fact, assumptions may not turn out to be true! So ask in doubt.
Of course, learning good communication skills is a process. It does not mean that once I finish my module on 'introduction to communications', I’ll be a super duper at communicating. But having taken this course, honestly, I really think everyone should have a go at taking a communications course, seriously. Because through a communications course, you learn a lot about the process and principles of communication, you finally understand why people do certain things, what these things mean. And personally, I get a lot of revelation from taking this course! Haha.. seriously..
For example, many people have the thought that conflicts are bad. Now that can be true if the conflict is persistent and escalates into permanent damage to the relationship. But do you know that two parties have a conflict with each other because they have a relationship between each other? Think about it.. people say that conflicts arise because of DIFFERENCES. But! If both parties do not care for each other, they do not have a relationship with each other, it really doesn’t matter even if other their views are different. I mean, who cares if that person’s views differ from mine if I don’t care for that person, if I don’t have a relationship with that person? Hehe.. get it??
I quote from my textbook, Communication Mosaics, "Conflict exists when people who DEPEND ON EACH OTHER have different views, interests, values, responsibilities, or objectives and perceive their differences as incompatible. The presence of conflict doesn’t mean a relationship is in trouble, although how people manage conflict does affect relationship health. Conflict is a sign that people are involved with each other. If they weren’t, difference wouldn’t matter and whouldnt need to be resolved."
Yup, so next time when you have a conflict with someone, be it your mum, best friend, soul-mate whatever, think of it as a sign that you care for each other and want to improve on your relationship! Can you imagine how close you two will get once that conflict is settled! Wow… you’ll have learnt so much more about each other’s character and love expressions... Now that’s a good thing to rejoice about! Hehe.. =D
## Really wana encourage all to take a communications course! It will only do your life good, afterall... our lives are all about relationships right? Our relationship with God, with our family, our friends, our colleagues, our soul-mates… If you want to get your life right, read the bible! That’s one, first in fact… hehe. Then read books about communications, and attend a course about it! I quote from the book again: "formal study can improve (communication) skills… Theories and principles of communication also help us make sense of what happens in our everyday lives, and they help us have influence". If you think you’re going to be an engineer that faces the machines and tools everyday, so you communicate less, you’re so going to be wrong! What if you and your partner have an great engineering breakthrough, or a new idea or concept and wish to set up a company to sell the idea? Ah-huh… You’ll need good communication skills to market your idea and convince your buyers that idea is worth the investment! A doctor too, will need to be able to listen and perceive a patient who is less able to convey his condition well, inorder to accurately prescribe and give specific instructions to his patient. That’s about it… gotta start my mugging soon.. Cheers! =D
Communication is the very fundamental thing in life, but it is also the very thing that all of us tend to "go haywire" in. The fact is that we have to LEARN how to communicate! haha... interesting huh?
Im not a communications expert, neither am i a guru in teaching communications. But based on my personal experiences and thoughts, and learnings as a communications studies student, maybe i can offer you certain thoughts to digest. hehe.. =)
Many people misinterpret the idea, the concept of communication. they think that simply by being a good talker, they are a good communicator. In truth, i think they make good promoters of their own ideals and their own message, but not necessarily good communicators. You see, in communication, there is a relationship. Talking, in my own opinion, is just the output, the product of your communication and thought process. What comes out of your mouth is just the end result of the inputs you've received. So what are these inputs? ah-huh, these inuts make up the process and concept of true communication.
In communications studies, i learnt that the basic communication processes are:
1)Perceiving and understanding ourselves, others, situations and experiences
2)Creating interaction climates
3)Engaging in verbal communication
4)Engaging in nonverbal communication
5)Listening and responding to others
6)Adapting to people and contexts
***Two very important things which I personally think is very essential for good communication is OBSERVATION & LISTENING!!! Too often, people just gag and gag and gag without thinking through the things that they have said. Remember WORDS HAVE IMPACT. haha...So it's very important that you consider how your msg, your verbal and non-verbal parts of your communication will impact the person. Will it hurt that person? How will that person perceive it? hmm.. maybe you'll wana think about that...
In deciding how a person will respond to your message, your past observations of that person will come into usefulness..hehe.. You may have noticed how she laughs when others say a certain line, or how she frowns in disagreement when another says something else. Then when you start to compare your intended message with the others, and start to visualize how she will react, based on your past interactions with him/her and observing how he/she reacted when certain words or lines were spoken to her.. ah-huh! There you will start to be able to understand how that person will react to your message.
I think the main thing that I wish to bring across is that God created all of us to have 2 eyes, 2 ears, but only 1 mouth. Surely this is an indication for us to hear and observe twice as much as we talk?? Hmmm…think about that..haha..
"So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath"- James 1:19
***Another thing that I have learnt recently is about ASSUMPTIONS. During a school ministry meeting, this speaker was sharing with us a message about the different seasons in our lives, in particular the 'winter season', and this sentence just BANGED into my head really really strongly: ASSUMPTION IS THE LOWEST LEVEL OF KNOWLEDGE!
Oh my! How true it is! Many a times, as our friendships or relationships deepen and continue to endure the test of time, our attitudes may grow to become casual towards our friends, our loved ones etc. We start to think that we have already known all about that person, every bit of their character, personality through and through. As a result, we start to have pre-conceived ideas in our minds about that person, how he/she’s gona think, react, feel… we think we have and know it all already. But that sentence really woke me up like, hey! Give that person a chance to respond and show his reactions and his thoughts for himself! You are not him, only God knows him through and through.. not you! So no matter how long you’ve known a person, there’s always something new to learn about that person, from that person.. so don’t assume. It will only limit our capacity to learn. In fact, assumptions may not turn out to be true! So ask in doubt.
Of course, learning good communication skills is a process. It does not mean that once I finish my module on 'introduction to communications', I’ll be a super duper at communicating. But having taken this course, honestly, I really think everyone should have a go at taking a communications course, seriously. Because through a communications course, you learn a lot about the process and principles of communication, you finally understand why people do certain things, what these things mean. And personally, I get a lot of revelation from taking this course! Haha.. seriously..
For example, many people have the thought that conflicts are bad. Now that can be true if the conflict is persistent and escalates into permanent damage to the relationship. But do you know that two parties have a conflict with each other because they have a relationship between each other? Think about it.. people say that conflicts arise because of DIFFERENCES. But! If both parties do not care for each other, they do not have a relationship with each other, it really doesn’t matter even if other their views are different. I mean, who cares if that person’s views differ from mine if I don’t care for that person, if I don’t have a relationship with that person? Hehe.. get it??
I quote from my textbook, Communication Mosaics, "Conflict exists when people who DEPEND ON EACH OTHER have different views, interests, values, responsibilities, or objectives and perceive their differences as incompatible. The presence of conflict doesn’t mean a relationship is in trouble, although how people manage conflict does affect relationship health. Conflict is a sign that people are involved with each other. If they weren’t, difference wouldn’t matter and whouldnt need to be resolved."
Yup, so next time when you have a conflict with someone, be it your mum, best friend, soul-mate whatever, think of it as a sign that you care for each other and want to improve on your relationship! Can you imagine how close you two will get once that conflict is settled! Wow… you’ll have learnt so much more about each other’s character and love expressions... Now that’s a good thing to rejoice about! Hehe.. =D
## Really wana encourage all to take a communications course! It will only do your life good, afterall... our lives are all about relationships right? Our relationship with God, with our family, our friends, our colleagues, our soul-mates… If you want to get your life right, read the bible! That’s one, first in fact… hehe. Then read books about communications, and attend a course about it! I quote from the book again: "formal study can improve (communication) skills… Theories and principles of communication also help us make sense of what happens in our everyday lives, and they help us have influence". If you think you’re going to be an engineer that faces the machines and tools everyday, so you communicate less, you’re so going to be wrong! What if you and your partner have an great engineering breakthrough, or a new idea or concept and wish to set up a company to sell the idea? Ah-huh… You’ll need good communication skills to market your idea and convince your buyers that idea is worth the investment! A doctor too, will need to be able to listen and perceive a patient who is less able to convey his condition well, inorder to accurately prescribe and give specific instructions to his patient. That’s about it… gotta start my mugging soon.. Cheers! =D
what i look forward to, 7:57 AM.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Wow... was looking through my block, and i realise i have my very first reader! haha... from the PHILIPINES! haha.. praise the lord! haha.. Hello to you, and hope you'll be blessed by my sharing.Look forward to greater entries because I know God has greater things installed for my life!This blog will get better not becos of my work, but cos of God's goodness! Be Blessed & Cheers! =D
Ps: This is the initial construction of my blog. So it's only filled with words. Trying to do stuff and change my layouts and add designs, but iti'll take some time cos im in my exam preparations season and im quite lousy with technoloy, comuter stuff.. so bear with me. haha..
Ps: This is the initial construction of my blog. So it's only filled with words. Trying to do stuff and change my layouts and add designs, but iti'll take some time cos im in my exam preparations season and im quite lousy with technoloy, comuter stuff.. so bear with me. haha..
what i look forward to, 11:12 PM.
These are little thoughts that I typed and saved into my "my stuff' folder.. Some of which are my relevation about God, some of which are my emotions and small talk with God. The focus on my sharing is not for the world to know me, but that this little girl here has a BIG GOD that is here and meant for EVERYONE. Cheers! =)
Tuesday, 13th sept 2005, 1139pm
Walking back from visitation, my eyes fell upon this Malay family who was coming out of their ford car, with a maid carrying their young child. My immediate thought was many Malay families must be admiring them. I visualized a picture of relatives praising them and looking at them as the upper class, the more affluent pple. Almost immediately, I thought, isn’t everything judged based on RELATIVE terms. Everything is relative. You are classified as rich because most pple don’t earn 10 000 a month. If everyone’s salary starts at 20000, wads your 10 000 a month? However, just I was thinking as such, God spoke to me… Only God is ABSOLUTE. When the word of God says that only God is good, it is absolute. No one can even come close to compare with Him. He is the beginning, the person who started the concept of RELATIVITY. There is comparison, a measurement cos we serve a perfect God. And when we look up to Him, we not only know that we have a beautiful God, but more importantly, be thankful that God has sent His son to die for us and redeem us, so that we can once again come back into reconcile with Him and go into His perfection.
Friday,23rd Sept, 2005
Am I in love? I think I like him. I know I have feelings for him. I think of him almost all the time.
But I know that this period of liking a guy again is going to be, it shall be different from my other experiences. Why? Because this time… I choose to not let these confusing, surging emotions disturb and trouble me. I choose to not be overwhelmed and let this feelings interrupt my daily events. I choose to place God first at all times, and this time, it’s not an exception. God, I give these feelings to you… be it confusion, be it gladness, or sadness… I give them all to you. I do not want them to overwhelm me. You come, come Lord, and take control. Take control of my emotions, take control of my life, take control of my entire being.
I give you all of me, in exchange for all of you.
Help me to take away these feelings of sadness, disappointment even, and place your divine peace and joy in me.
If it’s not your will for my life that this friendship should not develop… then let it not be so. I’ll rather not have it my own way and live in your will, then to live according to my own desires and led myself to self- destruction. I know you have a great plan for my life, my future. I trust in you. I love you. Thank you Jesus.
Wed, Sept 28 2005
I think God is speaking to me. At a time when I am thinking and feeling emotionally attached to someone who’s constantly in my mind. I was reading this girl’s blog called June. And when I read this, it struck a chord in my heart:
Guys, never settle for the less. When God says WAIT or NOT YET, you just wait. Because He will surely NOT shortchange you. God gave me His best, God gave someone that I can feel secure with all the time, God gave me someone that makes me feel good about myself all the time, most importantly, I know being with Brandon will always make me love God and never give up on God.
Choose someone that will only make you fall in love with Jesus. Or else you will be at the losing end.
I get it June. Thank you for this msg, June and God.=)
**By the way, Im amazed by how God justs takes over and manages our emotions and releases from our sorrows or worries. When you let go, and let God, you are saying that God, I am inadequate and I cant make things right with my own strength and capabilities.I want You to take dominon in my life. And You are my sovereign king. When you allow God to move freely in your life, without setting restrictions,When you start to align yourself to the Word of God, instead of trying to let the Word of God accomodate the lifestyle you want to live, then God comes in and you'll start to see Hey!Life is BEAUTIFUL!Because my Lord takes charge and He settles my troubles and sorrows for me! I need not worry!
Im totally cool with my feelings now. Thats y im so amazed by the rapidity of God in moving and taking away feelings that are not right for this season of my life now. Was initially very hesitant about publishing the 23rd and 28th Sept entry because these involve personal feelings. BUT! haha.. God is good, when you start giving your life to God,you'll realise all things turn out good for His glory. So I wana thank God for moving, in taking control of my emotions and setting my perspectives right!Love you so much! =D
07 Oct, Friday 2005- 12:56am
This is an article i found related to our calling.
http://www.guitar4christ.com/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=91&mode=&order=0&thold=0
I read another article that talks about different kinds of calling. I cant remember where i read it from, but i still remember the content very vividly. So here goes...
1)A general calling for all to come to the Lord- This is our salvation. Read John 10:1-18. "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."- John 10:10
2)A calling that differs each season of your life. This calling is one that fills the needs of different people that God puts into your life in each season. When pple say that our calling changes during different seasons of our lives, they are referring to this calling.
3)A secific calling,the calling of our life.Your gifts,talents,character and natural inclinations is for this very purpose.
Wow... I was just thinking, with these 3 callings.. LIFE'S JUST SO EXCITING! hahaha..man, I'm at a stage where I'm finding my specific calling because I dont want to be doing something that is not inline with my ultimate calling.But I wont be anxious, everything's in His timing anyway. heh.. I know that 2 impt things must come into play before I receieve this calling: OBEDIENCE & FAITHFULNESS.
The bible says that "but he that keepeth the law, happy is he."
Proverbs 29:18b
That's the very reason God put the verse about vision with the one about keeping his laws. before you can fufill ur God dream, obey his laws! Hide it like David so that you will not sin against Him. When u do what is right and please God, I can tell you for sure, the heavens will open and God will just pour out His plans and purposes into your life for you have took the effort to keep his commandments. Do small things before you can be allowed to do the big things. haha! I love the relevation of God! Really makes me pumped up! Yippy! =D
Tuesday, 13th sept 2005, 1139pm
Walking back from visitation, my eyes fell upon this Malay family who was coming out of their ford car, with a maid carrying their young child. My immediate thought was many Malay families must be admiring them. I visualized a picture of relatives praising them and looking at them as the upper class, the more affluent pple. Almost immediately, I thought, isn’t everything judged based on RELATIVE terms. Everything is relative. You are classified as rich because most pple don’t earn 10 000 a month. If everyone’s salary starts at 20000, wads your 10 000 a month? However, just I was thinking as such, God spoke to me… Only God is ABSOLUTE. When the word of God says that only God is good, it is absolute. No one can even come close to compare with Him. He is the beginning, the person who started the concept of RELATIVITY. There is comparison, a measurement cos we serve a perfect God. And when we look up to Him, we not only know that we have a beautiful God, but more importantly, be thankful that God has sent His son to die for us and redeem us, so that we can once again come back into reconcile with Him and go into His perfection.
Friday,23rd Sept, 2005
Am I in love? I think I like him. I know I have feelings for him. I think of him almost all the time.
But I know that this period of liking a guy again is going to be, it shall be different from my other experiences. Why? Because this time… I choose to not let these confusing, surging emotions disturb and trouble me. I choose to not be overwhelmed and let this feelings interrupt my daily events. I choose to place God first at all times, and this time, it’s not an exception. God, I give these feelings to you… be it confusion, be it gladness, or sadness… I give them all to you. I do not want them to overwhelm me. You come, come Lord, and take control. Take control of my emotions, take control of my life, take control of my entire being.
I give you all of me, in exchange for all of you.
Help me to take away these feelings of sadness, disappointment even, and place your divine peace and joy in me.
If it’s not your will for my life that this friendship should not develop… then let it not be so. I’ll rather not have it my own way and live in your will, then to live according to my own desires and led myself to self- destruction. I know you have a great plan for my life, my future. I trust in you. I love you. Thank you Jesus.
Wed, Sept 28 2005
I think God is speaking to me. At a time when I am thinking and feeling emotionally attached to someone who’s constantly in my mind. I was reading this girl’s blog called June. And when I read this, it struck a chord in my heart:
Guys, never settle for the less. When God says WAIT or NOT YET, you just wait. Because He will surely NOT shortchange you. God gave me His best, God gave someone that I can feel secure with all the time, God gave me someone that makes me feel good about myself all the time, most importantly, I know being with Brandon will always make me love God and never give up on God.
Choose someone that will only make you fall in love with Jesus. Or else you will be at the losing end.
I get it June. Thank you for this msg, June and God.=)
**By the way, Im amazed by how God justs takes over and manages our emotions and releases from our sorrows or worries. When you let go, and let God, you are saying that God, I am inadequate and I cant make things right with my own strength and capabilities.I want You to take dominon in my life. And You are my sovereign king. When you allow God to move freely in your life, without setting restrictions,When you start to align yourself to the Word of God, instead of trying to let the Word of God accomodate the lifestyle you want to live, then God comes in and you'll start to see Hey!Life is BEAUTIFUL!Because my Lord takes charge and He settles my troubles and sorrows for me! I need not worry!
Im totally cool with my feelings now. Thats y im so amazed by the rapidity of God in moving and taking away feelings that are not right for this season of my life now. Was initially very hesitant about publishing the 23rd and 28th Sept entry because these involve personal feelings. BUT! haha.. God is good, when you start giving your life to God,you'll realise all things turn out good for His glory. So I wana thank God for moving, in taking control of my emotions and setting my perspectives right!Love you so much! =D
07 Oct, Friday 2005- 12:56am
This is an article i found related to our calling.
http://www.guitar4christ.com/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=91&mode=&order=0&thold=0
I read another article that talks about different kinds of calling. I cant remember where i read it from, but i still remember the content very vividly. So here goes...
1)A general calling for all to come to the Lord- This is our salvation. Read John 10:1-18. "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."- John 10:10
2)A calling that differs each season of your life. This calling is one that fills the needs of different people that God puts into your life in each season. When pple say that our calling changes during different seasons of our lives, they are referring to this calling.
3)A secific calling,the calling of our life.Your gifts,talents,character and natural inclinations is for this very purpose.
Wow... I was just thinking, with these 3 callings.. LIFE'S JUST SO EXCITING! hahaha..man, I'm at a stage where I'm finding my specific calling because I dont want to be doing something that is not inline with my ultimate calling.But I wont be anxious, everything's in His timing anyway. heh.. I know that 2 impt things must come into play before I receieve this calling: OBEDIENCE & FAITHFULNESS.
The bible says that "but he that keepeth the law, happy is he."
Proverbs 29:18b
That's the very reason God put the verse about vision with the one about keeping his laws. before you can fufill ur God dream, obey his laws! Hide it like David so that you will not sin against Him. When u do what is right and please God, I can tell you for sure, the heavens will open and God will just pour out His plans and purposes into your life for you have took the effort to keep his commandments. Do small things before you can be allowed to do the big things. haha! I love the relevation of God! Really makes me pumped up! Yippy! =D
what i look forward to, 3:35 PM.
Here i am, sitting in front of my lappie,im finally resting for a day.. thank God for the rest. Think this rest will be good, much needed actually.. before i start preparing for the big E- EXAMS. hahahah.. but actually, since entering uni, i duno why, but i seem to have changed my perspective of tests and exams. Perhaps it is because of the consistent assignments and project work that pack us up to the brim, so i dont have that ample time to develop feelings of fear, anxiety wadsoever. But, seriously, i think the primary reason for such a change in perspective, maybe even the only reason (which i think it is), is really because God's peace has come into me, my heart, my life. Thank you Jesus. =)
Oh well, since i have that ample time i was talking about, today, i shall seek to enlighten any random readers with regards to who i am.(actually i dont think anyone has read my blog, haven even told anyone of my blog add....haha. ok, so here goes... (take in a DEEP breath..haha)
On the surface:My name's Gladys, Gladys Wong. I love my name, I really do. hehe.. not being self- indulgent, but i like the significance of my name.. being GLAD!
Im GLAD to be created and have a life to shine for Jesus, Im GLAD to be surrounded by friends and loved ones that i can love and be loved. Im GLAD for many things, simple pleasures I do take delight in thanking the Lord. You really cant take things for granted. Nothing's absolute, only God is- thats my revelation not too long ago.( shall publish it in awhile.=))But above all, Im GLAD I know the Lord and have a ersonal friendship, an intimate relationship with Him now, not later, definitely not any time later. Thank you Jesus.=)
Before I came to know Jesus, my life was about myself- Me, Myself, and Gladys.haha..Compared to many CHC church members, my life's really blessed. You know, parents happily married and staying strong, having good jobs that can provide for the family more than what our necessities require, I was really excelling in my studies and CCA, everything was going smooth... so in short, a pretty good life.
But i knew deep inside, i was not ok. Yes, emptiness that needed to be filled. haha.. oh well, so cutting short the story, i am saved! praise the Lord! Many pple may say "oh man, this girl has gone crazy. She has been brainwashed by the church, and is now going nuts.." hahah.. well, to many, christianity may be just one of the many religious entities that pple choose from, like you know, in a buffet with super great varieties of food, the way pple choose and pick a few which caters to their taste and preferences, just that in the case of religion you dont really choose a few, just one. haha.. but today, guys, with total honesty and with all my heart, i can sincerely tell you that christianity is not a religious entity. It is not some hairy fairy thing that pple believe in for emotional satisfaction. On a light note, i personally do not need another activity on sunday to fill up my time..haha.
It is that touch from God, that you just know, you just know.. that there's a God up there. And when you finally receive that touch of God, you will have tears- tears of longing, tears of desire, tears of relief that you've finally felt real love and treasure. You know, everytime that I am touched by the Holy Sirit, wow.. it's amazing. I feel so easy to fill into His arms and the love is real, genuine, unconditional, just asking you to love Him back.=)I love the Holy Spirit. And i notice that everytime that i cry when i am touched, I realise it's because I have been craving for this touch ALL my life! Have you ever had such an overwhelming desire to have someone? To see someone? Yes, it is that longing! But more, that longing stays, and grows inside of you. Wow right? hahah..
I pray pple all over the world will come to know and not just know! But to EXERIENCE His love. You know, the bible says that:
"Who executes justice for the oppressed, Who gives food to the hungry. The Lord gives freedom to the prisoners."- Ps146:7
"There He makes the hungry dwell, That they may establish a city for a dwelling place"-Ps107:36
"For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness."-Ps107:9
Nowadays, I always think: If someone's really smart, he or she will know that the bible has many many many secret recipes to not only staying away from or getting out of our troubles, sorrows and valleys... But more importantly, it is the way to having a LIFE!A victorious living. Mark my words.
Think i've written too much for this entry.. haha.. But there's so much MORE i wana share with pple! haha.. that's really why i set up this blog in the first place.I've never imagined a time when i would say yes to having a blog! haha.. cos i thought blogs are places of trash! Pple just say wad they wanted without realising that words have power! and they will impact or change a person's persective towards life! BUT.. now, my mission is to use this blog and share the goodness of christ with pple. Because pple matter to god, they matter to me too. =)
Oh well, since i have that ample time i was talking about, today, i shall seek to enlighten any random readers with regards to who i am.(actually i dont think anyone has read my blog, haven even told anyone of my blog add....haha. ok, so here goes... (take in a DEEP breath..haha)
On the surface:My name's Gladys, Gladys Wong. I love my name, I really do. hehe.. not being self- indulgent, but i like the significance of my name.. being GLAD!
Im GLAD to be created and have a life to shine for Jesus, Im GLAD to be surrounded by friends and loved ones that i can love and be loved. Im GLAD for many things, simple pleasures I do take delight in thanking the Lord. You really cant take things for granted. Nothing's absolute, only God is- thats my revelation not too long ago.( shall publish it in awhile.=))But above all, Im GLAD I know the Lord and have a ersonal friendship, an intimate relationship with Him now, not later, definitely not any time later. Thank you Jesus.=)
Before I came to know Jesus, my life was about myself- Me, Myself, and Gladys.haha..Compared to many CHC church members, my life's really blessed. You know, parents happily married and staying strong, having good jobs that can provide for the family more than what our necessities require, I was really excelling in my studies and CCA, everything was going smooth... so in short, a pretty good life.
But i knew deep inside, i was not ok. Yes, emptiness that needed to be filled. haha.. oh well, so cutting short the story, i am saved! praise the Lord! Many pple may say "oh man, this girl has gone crazy. She has been brainwashed by the church, and is now going nuts.." hahah.. well, to many, christianity may be just one of the many religious entities that pple choose from, like you know, in a buffet with super great varieties of food, the way pple choose and pick a few which caters to their taste and preferences, just that in the case of religion you dont really choose a few, just one. haha.. but today, guys, with total honesty and with all my heart, i can sincerely tell you that christianity is not a religious entity. It is not some hairy fairy thing that pple believe in for emotional satisfaction. On a light note, i personally do not need another activity on sunday to fill up my time..haha.
It is that touch from God, that you just know, you just know.. that there's a God up there. And when you finally receive that touch of God, you will have tears- tears of longing, tears of desire, tears of relief that you've finally felt real love and treasure. You know, everytime that I am touched by the Holy Sirit, wow.. it's amazing. I feel so easy to fill into His arms and the love is real, genuine, unconditional, just asking you to love Him back.=)I love the Holy Spirit. And i notice that everytime that i cry when i am touched, I realise it's because I have been craving for this touch ALL my life! Have you ever had such an overwhelming desire to have someone? To see someone? Yes, it is that longing! But more, that longing stays, and grows inside of you. Wow right? hahah..
I pray pple all over the world will come to know and not just know! But to EXERIENCE His love. You know, the bible says that:
"Who executes justice for the oppressed, Who gives food to the hungry. The Lord gives freedom to the prisoners."- Ps146:7
"There He makes the hungry dwell, That they may establish a city for a dwelling place"-Ps107:36
"For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness."-Ps107:9
Nowadays, I always think: If someone's really smart, he or she will know that the bible has many many many secret recipes to not only staying away from or getting out of our troubles, sorrows and valleys... But more importantly, it is the way to having a LIFE!A victorious living. Mark my words.
Think i've written too much for this entry.. haha.. But there's so much MORE i wana share with pple! haha.. that's really why i set up this blog in the first place.I've never imagined a time when i would say yes to having a blog! haha.. cos i thought blogs are places of trash! Pple just say wad they wanted without realising that words have power! and they will impact or change a person's persective towards life! BUT.. now, my mission is to use this blog and share the goodness of christ with pple. Because pple matter to god, they matter to me too. =)
what i look forward to, 2:38 PM.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Each morning I wake up
To live another day
I give thanks to the Lord above
Get down on my knees an pra
For I know deep inside
That my purpose in life
Is to love and be loved
To forgive and be forgiven
To bless and be blessed
Forever and ever
Amen Amen
I bathe in your presence
I am carried by your love
Over the sea of forgetfulness
To the moon and stars above
Then deep down inside
I'm reminded that I
Am to love and be loved
To forgive and be forgiven
To bless and be blessed
Forever and ever
Amen Amen
Let it be done
May your mercy and grace
Fill every space
On earth
As it is in heaven
~Thank you Jesus. You've saved my life.~
To live another day
I give thanks to the Lord above
Get down on my knees an pra
For I know deep inside
That my purpose in life
Is to love and be loved
To forgive and be forgiven
To bless and be blessed
Forever and ever
Amen Amen
I bathe in your presence
I am carried by your love
Over the sea of forgetfulness
To the moon and stars above
Then deep down inside
I'm reminded that I
Am to love and be loved
To forgive and be forgiven
To bless and be blessed
Forever and ever
Amen Amen
Let it be done
May your mercy and grace
Fill every space
On earth
As it is in heaven
~Thank you Jesus. You've saved my life.~
what i look forward to, 1:34 AM.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
They said you wouldn't make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe
Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe
Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe
Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe
Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo
what i look forward to, 12:41 AM.
