Tuesday, May 22, 2007
I didnt read my emails the last few days and it came as a surprise and shock rather that i had to do the offering on sunday's cch service. However, thank God that I attended the sat jw services and heard Lena preach the offering msg so I was able to recall roughly what the message was about.
I think the more impt thing was that I preached the best that I knew how, and the most impt thing was the prayer that I led the kids to. I truly love God. I felt I prayed an earnest, heart-felt prayer to God, actually I was praying myself to God using the microphone. Thank you God for the blessings in my life, no matter how my situation is right now, I just want to say thank You.
I really need God's wisdom. Just received a rebuke from my dad about my life and all and I deeply am tugged in my heart about double-mindedness. I'm not here nor there... I cant have the best of all worlds. I have to be focused and led by the spirit. There are things to do at home,personal financial difficulties, plus a huge fleshly desire to just stay home and rest.
But I dont want to be confused about life anymore, I prayed to God that I dont want to be. I really dont. So friends, if you're reading, pls pray for me. I need your prayers and help.
I dont want to be a pple pleaser, just a God pleaser.
I think the more impt thing was that I preached the best that I knew how, and the most impt thing was the prayer that I led the kids to. I truly love God. I felt I prayed an earnest, heart-felt prayer to God, actually I was praying myself to God using the microphone. Thank you God for the blessings in my life, no matter how my situation is right now, I just want to say thank You.
I really need God's wisdom. Just received a rebuke from my dad about my life and all and I deeply am tugged in my heart about double-mindedness. I'm not here nor there... I cant have the best of all worlds. I have to be focused and led by the spirit. There are things to do at home,personal financial difficulties, plus a huge fleshly desire to just stay home and rest.
But I dont want to be confused about life anymore, I prayed to God that I dont want to be. I really dont. So friends, if you're reading, pls pray for me. I need your prayers and help.
I dont want to be a pple pleaser, just a God pleaser.
what i look forward to, 12:58 AM.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Hi all!
I've been SOOO busy, I think the busiest and most tired in my entire 20+ plus yrs of living!
haha.. but I've been having a time of my life, totally crazy time of my life esp in SOT!
I'm amazed by how God moves and the touch of God. I dont even know how to begin describing the journey I've had these few weeks since the start of bible school. All I can say is that I'm really proud of myself and totally in gratitude to God and friends for love and support.
SOT has taught me alot on yielding to God. Argh...so many things have been happening its just unbelieveable. When pple start commending you, it's wow. On the other hand, its also lots of moulding and truth revealing.
Seriously speaking, you really cant do much on your own. I know that I cant, and when I experience the presence of God, I'm like wow.. this is what I'm living for.
A few days ago, I felt such a strong touch from God I literally felt a finger, hand touching my back when we were worshipping. I thought, hey, who was touching me that I wanted to turn back, but there's an immediate recognition of God's presence with a mix of the fear of God that I didnt want to turn back. I was like, I cant turn back, I know it's God, I just know it's Him. And I just kept weeping and remembering again my first touch from God. That strong warm feeling from my back, its amazing.
Till now, when things are hard-going, your encounters with God will always be the one that pull you through. Lean on them, because they are your histroical landmarks with God and a sign of His faithfulness and love. My touch from God at 16 just between me and Him will ALWAYS remain in my heart and mind.
I love God, you just got to experience Him yourself.
I've been SOOO busy, I think the busiest and most tired in my entire 20+ plus yrs of living!
haha.. but I've been having a time of my life, totally crazy time of my life esp in SOT!
I'm amazed by how God moves and the touch of God. I dont even know how to begin describing the journey I've had these few weeks since the start of bible school. All I can say is that I'm really proud of myself and totally in gratitude to God and friends for love and support.
SOT has taught me alot on yielding to God. Argh...so many things have been happening its just unbelieveable. When pple start commending you, it's wow. On the other hand, its also lots of moulding and truth revealing.
Seriously speaking, you really cant do much on your own. I know that I cant, and when I experience the presence of God, I'm like wow.. this is what I'm living for.
A few days ago, I felt such a strong touch from God I literally felt a finger, hand touching my back when we were worshipping. I thought, hey, who was touching me that I wanted to turn back, but there's an immediate recognition of God's presence with a mix of the fear of God that I didnt want to turn back. I was like, I cant turn back, I know it's God, I just know it's Him. And I just kept weeping and remembering again my first touch from God. That strong warm feeling from my back, its amazing.
Till now, when things are hard-going, your encounters with God will always be the one that pull you through. Lean on them, because they are your histroical landmarks with God and a sign of His faithfulness and love. My touch from God at 16 just between me and Him will ALWAYS remain in my heart and mind.
I love God, you just got to experience Him yourself.
what i look forward to, 12:56 AM.
