Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Today I chanced upon these two songs sang by Carrie Underwood, Lessons learnt and Jesus take the wheel.
Both are beautiful songs, beautifully written and beautifully sang.
Today I also went through an emotional rollercoaster. Through it all, this day only emphasised one thing: God is my refuge. He's our solid rock, our refuge and our ultimate comforter. I just kept worshipping Him and cried to Him and it is great just being able to cry out to your Abba Father freely, and He can like totally understand. You just come out STRONGER, and also it's like your Abba Father took away all your saddness and hurt. And when you really come to your Daddy, He NEVER says No. And at the end of the day, you really just realise ," God I dont care already. All I need is You. I can leave without all my stuff, but I cant, never can live without You. I need You." Thank you Abba Daddy.=)
All those of you, yes YOU! All of you who are facing problems in your life... Please Dont hesitate. Yes,Friends and family members are God given and they are there to support, encourage, love and to shelter you. BUT! They are NOT your source! God is our source! God is our creator! So go to Him!
He does not expect us to act holy and saint in front of Him! But we are to bring ALL our requests, worries and supplications to Him! So GO! NOW!
Today, it just made me fully internalise and comprehend the meaning of this verse, "My strength is made perfect in your weakness". God's grace is undeserving, BUT He freely gives us simply because He LOVES us.
Is it very hard to believe and confess that you believe in a God up in heaven?
Surely, you know there's a devil out there... think about it.
oh well, I believe I really do have a gift for writing! heheh.. I feel SO much better! hahah... tATA!=D
Both are beautiful songs, beautifully written and beautifully sang.
Today I also went through an emotional rollercoaster. Through it all, this day only emphasised one thing: God is my refuge. He's our solid rock, our refuge and our ultimate comforter. I just kept worshipping Him and cried to Him and it is great just being able to cry out to your Abba Father freely, and He can like totally understand. You just come out STRONGER, and also it's like your Abba Father took away all your saddness and hurt. And when you really come to your Daddy, He NEVER says No. And at the end of the day, you really just realise ," God I dont care already. All I need is You. I can leave without all my stuff, but I cant, never can live without You. I need You." Thank you Abba Daddy.=)
All those of you, yes YOU! All of you who are facing problems in your life... Please Dont hesitate. Yes,Friends and family members are God given and they are there to support, encourage, love and to shelter you. BUT! They are NOT your source! God is our source! God is our creator! So go to Him!
He does not expect us to act holy and saint in front of Him! But we are to bring ALL our requests, worries and supplications to Him! So GO! NOW!
Today, it just made me fully internalise and comprehend the meaning of this verse, "My strength is made perfect in your weakness". God's grace is undeserving, BUT He freely gives us simply because He LOVES us.
Is it very hard to believe and confess that you believe in a God up in heaven?
Surely, you know there's a devil out there... think about it.
oh well, I believe I really do have a gift for writing! heheh.. I feel SO much better! hahah... tATA!=D
what i look forward to, 7:54 PM.
There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts, That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things, I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were, Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful,
for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for everytime,
Some pages turned, Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads, I never should've taken,
Been some signs I shouldn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some roads, That I wish I could have one more chance to make,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned,
But there were, Lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
All the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past, Cause it's gone,
And nothing's gotta go,
Because they are gone, Lessons learned.
what i look forward to, 7:50 PM.
Jesus, Take The Wheel | ||
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It would been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention She was going way to fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn't even have time to cry She was sooo scared She threw her hands up in the air Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock And for the first time in a long time She bowed her head to pray She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life I know I've got to change So from now on tonight Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Oh, Jesus take the wheel Oh, I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on From this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh | ||
what i look forward to, 7:34 PM.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Hello besty dearest!!!!!!!
I know you're very stressed up right now.. Just Hang on ok???
School's over and done with in just TWO WEEKS!!!!
Hold on, you can do it!!!
As for your future planning of stuff... I personally think the esplanade thing is a good thing. I mean after all you just finished school.. do sth you like.=)
- It is not going to be a permanent thing-6 weeks right?
- If you have no other sources of income, or badly in need to income, then don't do. Otherwise, I really think it's a good thing to add to your resume.
- If it's going to affect service, cg... basically your walk with god, then don't do. Otherwise, just do it.
Pray and ask God. He will direct and help you in your planning.
I'm here for you! I'm here with you! Keep it going! JIAYOU!
You're called to shine! Amen!
I LOVE YOU!! Cheers!=D
what i look forward to, 9:11 PM.
HAHA.... my mum's so cute...
She cooked a piece of pepper chicken and gave it to me...
The main thing was she was telling me to not eat so much outside food.. later have all those you know.. high cholesterol lar... blah blah blah..
What I found funny was that she told jieren as well.hhaa... Jieren's my sis's boyfriend of 1yr plus. hahahah... She told him not to eat so much roti prata..
Hahahahha... I laughed when she told me that! haha.. What a loving mum.. Ai4 Wu1 Ji2 Wu1 !! hahaha...
mummy 万岁！！！wan4 sui4!!!!!! hehe! =)
what i look forward to, 9:03 PM.
Watching "I not stupid too" has brought me back to the crucial skill to master in life: COMMUNICATION.
In the movie, it has shown us the problems of families:
not that parents dont love their children. In fact, they love us so much that their sacrifices are often rendered irrational. Yet, children do not receive or interpret their actions as acts or expressions of love.
Very often, we see them differently from the way parents intended them to be. Very often, the heart of the message does not tally with the message itself.
I say that is heart- breaking.
The movie, there was this part in the script:
"It is not that your father does not love you. He loves so much that He is willing to die for you. His problem is that He does not know HOW to love you."
I cried at that moment. I dont know how to express the thoughts in my mind and heart right now, but this movie definitely made a huge impact in me.
Children, including me: learn to KNOW your parents' love language. Especially when your parent(s) tend not to be the expressive kind,and on the contrary, are the more consevative, naggy, fierce, aggressive kind... It REALLY does not mean that they do not love you.
A person's current character, behaviours and attitudes very often, if not always, are just the MANIFESTATIONS or the RESULTS and CONSEQUENCES of their past. Maybe they had suffered from bad, abusive childhoods. Maybe they were brought up under harsh conditions. Maybe our grandparents, their parents had brought them up through harsh, authoritative ways. That's why they grow up having those mentalities.
And just as we may not like their aggressive styles, how do you not know that deep in thier hearts, they too hate the way they behave? I believe very strongly, that everyone of us has a conscience. When a person cools down from his/her anger, that is the point of time that he/she will start having feelings of regret or guilt from being so harsh. Parents are also humans.
Instead of just keep being critical of our parents' faults, let us as children learn to love them more.
Want more love?
Then YOU take the initiative to start the ball rolling FIRST!
Dont keep your pride so high that your relationship with your parents or anyone just keeps snow balling down into the long kang(drain)!
Put your stupid pride down for once and do something!
Love them! Because they love you!
***PS: I remembered I wrote an entry in my early blogging days not too long ago about communication. It must be LEARNED! But we all as human beings must be WILLING to learn. So stop the pride, thinking we kinda know it all already, and start LEARNING HOW to relay your heart to pple, and HOW pple can receive the EXACT meanings to your message. So I put a link which will show that entry, abit long, and only white-coloured, but I really felt it is a good entry.=)
With my greatest blessings and love to all YOU out there! Post me a note or sth if you wish..Longing to hear from YOU ALL out there! Cheers!=)
what i look forward to, 11:39 AM.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Today, I watched a very beautiful movie. It’s a local production... More beautiful than many other Hollywood international, big blockbuster movies.
I watched… I not stupid too.
I’ve been wanting to watch it. Because I love Jack Neo’s realism. I love the way he is not as “educated”, or “scholarly”, or academically high-flyer, YET has achieved way beyond many degree holders, many professors. I love the way he relates to the locals, the way he feels and connects with Singaporeans’ hearts and minds, the way he brings pple and even the government the reality of the heartlanders’ voices (xing sheng).
After having watched the movie, I felt such a great joy and thanks to the Lord for the course that I am studying. Yes, I love my course- Communications Studies! I love what I am studying more than ever!
Communication Studies= Media + Communication
It’s all about how to use media creatively, effectively, and PURPOSEFULY to communicate to my audience. That is REAL DYNAMIC BIG IMPACT!
Media- Such a powerful tool to impact nations. Technology increase-> More means and ways to reach pple across the globe. More importantly, you are able to bring your beliefs, your dreams, your convictions, YOUR MESSAGE across into thousands and even MILLIONS of people’s hearts. Marvellous
Communication- That I have always said, right at the start of my first few entries, is such an important skill everyone must have. The art of communication. Your life is all about relationships: relationship with your parents, relationship with your siblings and relatives, relationship with your friends, relationship with your classmates and colleagues, relationship with your future spouse, relationship with God. Everything in life is about your relationships. Effective communication is the skill, the art to master inorder to lead a good life. The most impt relationship to have and have it GOOD- your relationship with God. Whether you have God in your heart or not, He does exist. Whether you believe Jesus died for your sins or not, He has.
Don’t be so clouded by your present life and what you can do to make your next ten yrs better , that you forget to look at your eternal life. Because whether you believe it or not, you’re an eternal spirit being. But while you are on this earth, you’ve got to make the choice whether you want your eternity to be in hell, or in heaven.
ETERNITY= FOREVER!!! Think about it.
Anyway, I thank you Abba Father for your guidance and leading me to the right course. I’m feel so happy to be in a course that will equip me to use the powerful tool of the media industry to communicate the msg that I want to bring across to people- the msg of love, hope, and peace. The message of a great destiny, the message that there is an unconditional love that has been given to us, the message that when you think all hope is gone, there is still our heavenly daddy to cry to and He will comfort us and lift us out of our troubles.
ONE PERSON=>ONE MEDIA TOOL=>ONE MESSAGE,ONE FERVENT BELIEF =>IMPACT!!!
I watched… I not stupid too.
I’ve been wanting to watch it. Because I love Jack Neo’s realism. I love the way he is not as “educated”, or “scholarly”, or academically high-flyer, YET has achieved way beyond many degree holders, many professors. I love the way he relates to the locals, the way he feels and connects with Singaporeans’ hearts and minds, the way he brings pple and even the government the reality of the heartlanders’ voices (xing sheng).
After having watched the movie, I felt such a great joy and thanks to the Lord for the course that I am studying. Yes, I love my course- Communications Studies! I love what I am studying more than ever!
Communication Studies= Media + Communication
It’s all about how to use media creatively, effectively, and PURPOSEFULY to communicate to my audience. That is REAL DYNAMIC BIG IMPACT!
Media- Such a powerful tool to impact nations. Technology increase-> More means and ways to reach pple across the globe. More importantly, you are able to bring your beliefs, your dreams, your convictions, YOUR MESSAGE across into thousands and even MILLIONS of people’s hearts. Marvellous
Communication- That I have always said, right at the start of my first few entries, is such an important skill everyone must have. The art of communication. Your life is all about relationships: relationship with your parents, relationship with your siblings and relatives, relationship with your friends, relationship with your classmates and colleagues, relationship with your future spouse, relationship with God. Everything in life is about your relationships. Effective communication is the skill, the art to master inorder to lead a good life. The most impt relationship to have and have it GOOD- your relationship with God. Whether you have God in your heart or not, He does exist. Whether you believe Jesus died for your sins or not, He has.
Don’t be so clouded by your present life and what you can do to make your next ten yrs better , that you forget to look at your eternal life. Because whether you believe it or not, you’re an eternal spirit being. But while you are on this earth, you’ve got to make the choice whether you want your eternity to be in hell, or in heaven.
ETERNITY= FOREVER!!! Think about it.
Anyway, I thank you Abba Father for your guidance and leading me to the right course. I’m feel so happy to be in a course that will equip me to use the powerful tool of the media industry to communicate the msg that I want to bring across to people- the msg of love, hope, and peace. The message of a great destiny, the message that there is an unconditional love that has been given to us, the message that when you think all hope is gone, there is still our heavenly daddy to cry to and He will comfort us and lift us out of our troubles.
ONE PERSON=>ONE MEDIA TOOL=>ONE MESSAGE,ONE FERVENT BELIEF =>IMPACT!!!
what i look forward to, 5:51 PM.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
As I took time off a tiring eventful, yet totally meaningful and Holy Spirit- filled weekend... here I am sitting in front of my lappie reading blogs. I have a few blogs that to me, has become part of my habitual routine... daily food for thought actually.. haha..
Bestie's Blog... June's blog... I really receive alot of spiritual food for thought from these people's writings..
But anyway, this entry's not about them..
Just that as I read and thought about things, I recalled ytd's conversation with BT bestie..
Fear of people's opinions... yeah, they can be real.
Yet I really do treasure thee right inside my heart... I can never tell God enough how blessed I am to have you in my life.
And as I sat down, actually Im not like really thinking.. it just came, like just felt the holy spirit saying this to me:
That the people in my life are God-sent. Fear comes from the devil. Perfect love casts out ALL fear. If you love your friend, your joy and happiness in finding your greatest friend should be shared with the world. You should dance with joy for the blessing of having found this friend.
Have you ever considered, that your friend will not feel secure about this friendship too if you yourself dont feel secure and cannot give your friend the assurance in this friendship? If you're not proud of him, if you're not proud of having him in your life, then the assurance he has in this friendship can fade too. There must be a mutual confidence and protection and security in this friendship. There is nothing to be scared about. I have given you this friendship. If you dont keep and protect and treasure your blessings and this friendship, they will be neglected and go away.
Take ownership of friendships!
BT BESTIE... I have no fears le about this friendship! You are greatly loved and kept by me!!!!! Cheers! hehe!=D
what i look forward to, 11:47 PM.
Guys really do have menopause..
My dad is having it...
I'm like so so so so SO sure....
He's been behaving very weirdly...
Very, like extra tempremental suddenly...
For no good reason... REALLY...
He's behaving like how a child will behave during puberty... emotional and tempremental, you know.. the sudden anger waves? yeah.. at least i know me and my sis and my bro had it.. hehe
haiz... nvm, must pray. Please God, please I'm begging you.. Give me the willpower and the love of God to care and support my dad. That NO MATTER how harsh or unreasonable he is, I'll be able to love him and enlarge my capacity to swallow those harsh words. God, help me..
Devil, you shoot me.. I tell you I'll shoot you back! Watch out!!
My dad is having it...
I'm like so so so so SO sure....
He's been behaving very weirdly...
Very, like extra tempremental suddenly...
For no good reason... REALLY...
He's behaving like how a child will behave during puberty... emotional and tempremental, you know.. the sudden anger waves? yeah.. at least i know me and my sis and my bro had it.. hehe
haiz... nvm, must pray. Please God, please I'm begging you.. Give me the willpower and the love of God to care and support my dad. That NO MATTER how harsh or unreasonable he is, I'll be able to love him and enlarge my capacity to swallow those harsh words. God, help me..
Devil, you shoot me.. I tell you I'll shoot you back! Watch out!!
what i look forward to, 11:40 PM.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Hello Everybody!!!
I'm exploding with excitement and joy now as i just return home from a GREAT VISITATION! It really was a very cool visitation... it's not the super "chop chop" style of visitation nor the constant enquiring from sis shumei if we're coming to our last house, how many more houses to go that was cool... no no no.. But it was her bubbliness and the very enjoyable conversations with her that I found really very enjoyable. She didnt talk anything like super spiritual or mind breaking you know that sort of thing, but her simple talks and pleasant looks and good countenance really eases all the fan2 nao3 away.. hehe.. cool! I'm looking forward to the next few visitations with her.
Of course i seriously hope my actual visitation leader bro cheong wai will be well soon and come back. I'm praying hard for the family and him. God please protect and bring healing.
Anyway! Yes! A new revelation! Wow.. I totally love it everytime I hear God speak something to me! Awesome! Way cooler! Wow! hahaha....
Yupz... so i was making my way home from visitation ( hmm... that was how I received my revelation in another past entry.. hehe), and was just thinking suddenly," gladys, what's the difference between you and a social worker?" I mean, both of us do visitations, speak to households, give things, do some counselling blah blah....
And as i was thinking and walking home, God just gently put it into my ears, the difference is you. I was like.. huh?
me?
what is that?
Then I saw it... Yes, yeah! the difference between a social worker and me is ME!
When a social worker is doing all his/her stuff, he/she is representing who? => an organisation.
When I'm walking and visiting, who do I represent?=> MY LORD JESUS CHRIST! WOW!
Yes! the difference is that when I'm doing visitation, it is ME, GLADYS WONG that is doing it! Not a miss so and so or mr so and so from whatever charitable organisation.
You may say... big deal, what kind of revelation is that?!
but when I realised that God has placed ME ,not somebody else at this place at this time to visit the kids, it really got me impacted. Like, that means I'm given the authority from Christ,placed in this region of the country to impact and make a difference! This ME is not perfect, far from perfection. BUT BUT BUT!!! This ME has a particular SOMEONE in her that is BIGGER than ANY PERSON OR ORGANISATION, so this ME has a GREATER AUTHORITY than ANY OTHER CHARITY SOCIAL WORKER to make a difference!
YUP! So what must I do to make a difference? I realise, the first thing: build relationships. If you're not in ANY position in a person's life, in a person's mind, then when the person is in trouble, sorrow or joy even, that person will not even remember or recall your existance, much less call you to share his/her troubles and joys.
So how to build relationships?
1) whatever language of love you most readily express, use it. Simple things like a card, or a sth small in a normal day makes a person feel like "wah! it's a normal day and that person still remembers me. Perhaps it really shows that she cares and I do matter!"
2) of course spending time is impt in building relationships... but if you dont have much free time then how? So I think it's very impt on how you spend the time that you're together.
3) Just do it! yes... pple who have fear of man, just do it! sometimes we have too many concerns, too many fears.. scared she will think I crazy la, scared he will think I llike him la... blah blah blah... Of course we must be wise and cautious in our actions and behaviours so that it will not be interpreted wrongly, but the bible says that the ways(actions) of the pure will be pure. Once pple know our stand, they will receive as such. I guess what Im trying to say is that amidst all the considerations, we must not let all these cause us to stop sowing into pple's lives. No sowing=no harvest lor! hehe.. simple huh.
4) anyway, get out of your comfort zone!!! I'm screaming that to myself too! Yeah.. when you want to do sth, anything, anything that you've yet to accomplish, of course you need to take an extra NEW step right? Otherwise, old steps will only bring you around your old course of path! Ok, I'm so saying this to myself... YEs I'm taking steps!!
I cant wait to see how Gladys Wong grows by the end of 2006.. my report card at the end of the yr! hehe... cheers!=D
what i look forward to, 7:41 PM.
